Wow, it has been five months since my last post.
A lot has changed.
We've bought a flat, moved in, tried for a baby, got pregnant.
DS will have a little brother due only 8 days after his fourth birthday.
I started writing this blog when I was a new mum, terrified and bewildered, amazed and alone on a new path which nothing in my life before had prepared me. I figured this would be a good time to sit back and reflect on my first four years of Motherhood, before the whole deal changes completely, again.
Sure, there are things I would love to go back and re-learn or un-learn. More the latter than the former. Sure, I've made a ton of mistakes. But I'll tell you, I do not regret a second of it, because I have led with my mama heart and my instincts. Together with the support of of my husband and some amazing friends I've made along the way, I've made it through.
In a way, having another baby will be like a second chance - although not necessarily one to do things all that differently, but to be rid of the anxiety and self doubt that accompanied the decision making of my firstborn's babyhood. No one is going to make me question what I know in my heart to be right for my children. Not anymore. That is the kind of freedom I wish for all my sisters in Motherhood.
I support you and your choices, even if they are different from mine, because you make them from your heart, with the best intentions, with the best information, with the knowledge that you are the only person who has ever been the mother of your child, or ever will be.
So even if you don't plan on having any more kids, or you're undecided, or some other circumstance means you will only have one - be confident, don't take guff from anyone, remember that the world spends most of its time trying to tear you down so it can sell you a product to bring you back up again.
You are not a consumer, you're a caregiver, and I support you.
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